wow been a long time since i wrote in this..... way to long. well... things are still goin good. im still with erin.. we're engaged, have our own apartment... i go 2 school for cosmotology, and work at dunkin...i have a kitten named mistie... gonna be goin to florida for a week sep 9-15..sooo freakin excited.... yup yup..takin a month off of school to enjoy summer.. spending a week with my cuz jade cuz we barely see each other anymore... gonna go 2 beach and 6flags and have fun for that month lol.. no stress for school hahah...hmm not much else is goin on...
well..me and erin are doin really well...REALLY REALLY well. we plan on being 2gether forever and that makes me happy. im so in love with her...well im unable to come on the computer all that much now cuz my moms gay but im at my gf's house on her computer lol..if anyone wants to give me a call my cell is 651-5505 kk? love everyone!!!!
well..alot has been goin on...i am wit erin i duno if i already said that but its official...im so happy wit her!! hehe im goin to be gettin a car soon and starting college soon so i guess things are goin ok..there are some things goin on but i dont feel like talkin to them. well hmm... shrot update im hangin out wit jade and erin is comin to get us soon woot woot
hmm..well things are ok..at the moment im grounded for a week..meaning i cant see my girlfriend for a whole week.!! :( we see each other everyday. so sad sniffle sniffle. but things are quite confussin too cuz my feelings for nikki are comin back REALLY strong and i dont know wat to do.i mean i love erin and all but i really really like nikki and havent stopped likin her. it juss sucks cuz me and erin had a convo on the phone this morning and she was sayin she never wants to lose me and she can she herself in the future with me and in a nice house and a little me runnin around.. and i told her im not leaving her and id never cheat on her wit nik. or leave her for nik. so this kinda sucks.. i dont know wat im goin to do. i need some time to think. alls i know is that i am happy wit erin now. and everyone says jus do wat makes u happy and i am happy. she treats me so good and she never forgets to let me know how much she cares.. i felt like and ass the other night cuz i quite smokin and the other night i was really down so i had a few drags of one and she hasnt smoked in years so she stopped at a convenient store and was like im goin to buy a pack of ciggs and i got all mad and when she came out she didnt have ciggs at all she had 3 roses. it was so sweet. well i gotta go cuz im not supposed to be on the poota lol
Your sign specializes in relationships, and when it comes to the person you think is perfect for you, you'll stop at nothing to let them know how fond you are. That's lovely, but it might not always be your best tactic. At the moment, for example, playing just a tad hard to get might not hurt. In fact, it might help. A lot. Wait until the phone rings three or four times before you pick it up -- and pretend you don't have caller ID.
well juss lettin everyone know that i am still alive..been grounded from the poota..im at work right now lol well things are ok...alot ofmy friends hate me now cuz i jus started goin out with this girl ern..imreally happy but im gonna get my ass beat by a bunch of girls lolol haha o well hehe
hmm well..things have been goin good. i had been confussed for a while but now its all good..me and nikki are sorta dating i guess hehe... we had our first kiss the other night :)..shes soo sweet. so i guess we'll see wat happens..lol
Oh-oh. You're getting that 'freeway feeling' again -- as in, you have a serious urge to merge. Is it time to take this relationship just a little bit deeper? Several signs do point to yes. So go ahead -- trust yourself and the other person. This is exactly what the stars have ordered for you. However, just like merging on the freeway, there's no need to rush. Take it at a comfortable pace.
Seriously, how cute are you? Whatever you're doing these days is working -- you've got the look, and how. People can't help but notice when you're in the immediate vicinity. So go ahead and work that magic of yours to its fullest extent -- especially when it comes to you-know-who. Like a powerful magnet, all you have to do is point yourself in the right direction, and all the right elements will come calling.
i've been so happy lately..been having fun hanging out wit some of my friends and its been great....lol
woot woot im graduating 2day!! i never knew how many friends i had..lol cuz everyone keeps sayin oh im gonna miss u and gettin all teary eyed lol..im gonna miss alot of them too. im sad cuz my dad cant make it and my uncle always promised he'd be there and he isnt comeing! erggg and i havent talked to tanya yet so i duno if shes coming..ill be sooo upset if she dont come..shes one person that i REALLY REALLY REALLY want there..im hoping shes jus not tellin me cuz she wants to surprise me there! i dont wanna get my hopes up tho :'( hmm... ho hum ho hum..ehhh...ergg....uhhh...hmm... yea...lol....hehe...haha...ok i think im done now..lol
Guess what? Your soul needs nourishment just as much (and sometimes more) than your body does. So get out there and do something enriching -- something that puts you back in touch with your vital, essential nature and reminds you of what you care about. That may mean a walk in the woods, or some time with your family. Why not both? Whatever it is that feeds your psyche, you need to do it now. Get started.
omg things have been soo freakin crazy!!! some things good and others..well...really REALLY bad.. but one good thing is that me and tanya are talkin more again.. we have been talkin since the night of my concert... i've been calling her more and shes been actually callin me back and stuff...hehe i have been goin crazy without her! man i love that girl.. she means the world to me and when im around her or talkin to her no matter how mad or upset i am, everything juss always seems better when shes there.. thats one thing i love about her. im soo glad i have her. i juss think ill always want more.. but i mean like i want to be with her more than anything but if i had to decide between being wit her and ruining our friendship or juss stayin friends i'd definetly juss stay friends cuz without her im lost. i hope we can hang out soon. o yeah.. shes tryin to come to my graduation!! ill be so happy if she can!! i juss want her to rap me in her arms and never ever let go hehe... i gotta go get my pics from cvs! yay they r from prom and from jess's wedding! woot woot tanya is in them!!! hehehhehe
so much goin on lately... dont know wat to do... i really need my tanya!!! like NOW!! im goin nutz and i need to either see her or hear her voice :'( i miss her
The trick to being happy is learning to want the right things. The funny thing about the universe is that once you learn what the right things for you are, very often you start to receive them (especially if you remember to say please and thank you -- the stars are suckers for good manners). So why not take a moment or two everyday and do some soul-searching about your real desires? You can get 'em if you really want.
I just want to feel safe in my own skin
I just want to be happy again
I just want to feel deep in my own world
but I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore
On a different day if I was safe in my own skin
then I wouldn't feel so lost and so frightened
But this is today and I'm lost in my own skin
You and someone important to you need some serious time alone, and you need it right now. You know it and they know it. The good news is that you can both arrange it, no matter how last-minute the requests are, if you choose just the right moment, turn on the charm and ask -- okay, beg -- nicely. There isn't any bad news, either. You may have some hoops to jump through when you get back, but you'll be in such a good mood that it won't matter.
|nother random questionare
1. What is the geekiest part of your music collection? i have no clue wat your talkin bout lol
2. What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? pickles
3. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? raise your voice, walk to remember
4. If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done? tummy tuck,liposucktion
5. Do you have a completely irrational fear? thunder lighting,spider, and being alone
6. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments? Cracking my knuckles,bittin pens
7. Are you a pyromaniac? Slightly.
8. Do you have too many love interests? kinda...hahah
9. Do you know anyone famous? not that i know of
10. Describe your bed. big, comfy, and purple fuzzy
11. Are you spontaneous or planned? depends..kinda both
12. Who would play you in a movie? I am stumped. Perhaps...Katie Holmes yumm
13. Do you know how to play poker? sure dont
14. What do you carry with you at all times? cell chapy, money, keys, other things
15. What do you miss most about being a kid? everything..being able to be stupid and not really look stupid..and gettin your way
16. Are you happy with your given name? nope..my dad wanted my 2 be called allissa but my mom being a bitch said no and named me melissa
17. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year? a whole lot
18. What color is your bedroom? purple
19. What was the last song you were listening to? ride wit me
20. Have you ever been in a play? yes
21. Have you ever been in love? unfortunitly
22. Do you talk a lot? duh
23. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself? not at all
25. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? sometiems when i want to be
26. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends? did for a while..stupid move
27. What is your ideal marriage location? beach
28. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play? Guitar,violin,piano
29. Favorite fabric?i dont like them
30. Something you love and hate? heather
31. What kind of bedding do you use? i dont understand
32. Do you tell your friends about your sex life?but od course...wat else are friends for? haha
33. What's the one language you want to learn? italian
34. How do you eat an apple? i peel it them use the apple slicer
35. What do you order at a bar? someones number
36. Have you ever pierced your body parts? yupp..ears..belly button
37. Do you have tattoos? not yet
39. Do you drive a stick?yumm
40. What's one trait you hate in a person? Arrogance lying
41. What kind of watch do you wear? mudd
42. What was your first screenname? misslylynn87
43. Do you consider yourself materialistic? no
44. What do you cook the best? deserts
45. Favorite writing instrument? gell pens
46. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?stand out
47. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? yea fun!!!
48. What's one car you will never buy? and old box and hummer
49. What kind of books do you like to read? mystery, love anything
50. If you won the lottery, what would you do? shoppin spree!!!
51. Burial or cremation? cremated and thrown on a spot that will mean something to me
52. How many online journals do you read regularly? way to many to count
53. What's one thing you're a loser at? everything
54. If you don't like a person, how do you show it? i just tell them that i dont like them
55. Do you cry in front of your friends? only certain ones
56. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people? wow this girl is mad stupid haha
57. What's one thing you like to do alone? write and draw
58. Are you a giver or a taker? both
59. When's the last time you cried? I think Friday.
60. Favorite communication method? poota
61. How many drinks before you're tipsy? alot
62. Do you think you're cute? no
63. Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends? Kind of
It's not that you're never in the mood to talk. Truth be told, you're chattier than all the other signs with that reputation combined. The thing is, at the moment, you're feeling so darned chatty that you're going to amaze even your closest loved ones with your inability to 'just say shh.' Try not to aggravate anyone too badly. You won't always feel this way.
well lets see..my conert went awsome!! i did so extremely great! i had people i didnt even know tellin me how good i did and stuff..it felt good..the best part of course was when i saw tanya.. i was hugin my uncle and i saw her and i ran and threw my arms around her... she just held me for i swear it was 10 minutes and she kept kissing me and sayin i missed u baby.. she always calls me her babygirl. im her baby. hehe but then i had to go in so i did and then she waited after the concert for me and she was soo excited for me. she almost started crying and i thanked her for coming and she looked me in the eyes and was like i wouldnt miss this for the world! and she gave me the longest kiss ever and hugged me and wouldnt let me go but then she had to leave..and that made my night! and i get to see her sunday too!! yaya that was the best night of my life...well sunday could be second. tanya said shes gonna dance wit me at the weddin :) woot woot im in the best mood besides that im sick... i feel like shit to cuz me and nikki havent talked in like 3 days.. we havent been able to get ahold of each other..ahh she juss imed me..heres 1 final thought... a survey things..pretty long..
Time started: 11:52 am
Nickname: missie, babygirl
Single or Taken: single
Siblings: 2 older sis, one 21 other 23
Eye color: hazel
Shoe size: 6-7
Weight: egghh lol
Innie or Outie: innie
What are you wearing right now : betty boop pjs
Where do you live : rhode island
Righty or lefty: lefty
any pets: yup 2cats 2 dogs
Can you make a dollar in change right now: yup..tips from dunkin donuts!!
Who are your closest friends? my cousin
Do you have a bf or gf?: not at the moment
Best place to go for a date: beach
Fav romantic memory: when my ex bf took me to this spot at night where u could see the whole sky and a whole bunch of buidlings and it was gorgeous
Do you have any tattoos or piercing: my ears and im gettin my eye brow n tongue soon
Favorite kind of pants: pj pants haha
Color: black and purple
Food: oodles n noodles yummie
Fav subject in school: chorus or science
Drink: orange soda
Celeb: angelina jolie!! hottt
Sport: soccer volleyball tennis
Fruit: bananas cherries
Veggie: uncooked carrots
Fast-Food Place: yuck
Place to visit: inuo nevver been nowhere
Month: october..my bday and halloween
Group: uh same
solo: avril lavigne, mariah carey
Empty Soul: wat?
Movie: cant think of ne at the moment
Ice Cream: cookie dough
Cologne: i dunno
Perfume: mk&a or victorias secret
Favorite cartoon character: betty boop
Favorite disney character: jasmine
Have you ever ...
Given anyone a bath: little babies...
Bungee jumped: no
Broken the law: who hasnt
Made yourself throw-up: yup..not for that reason tho
Gone skinny dipping: arggggg i still need to do that
Loved someone so much it made you cry?: yes, i know its stupid but oh well
Broken a bone: no
Played truth or dare: yeah
Been in a physical fight: no just with my sis and cuz
Been in a police car: no
Been on a plane: no
Come close to dying: yep
Been in a sauna: no
Been in a hot tub: yes
Swam in the ocean: lots
Fallen asleep in class: many times
Ran away: yup
Cried when someone died: duh
Flashed someone: yeah
Lied: uh huh
Cried in school: yup
Laughed so hard you fell off your chair: LOL yeah
Fallen for your best friend?: uhhh..yea...
Made out with JUST a friend?: yea
Been rejected: yup
Been in love?: yup
Used someone: yep
Been cheated on?: too many times
Done something you regret?: yep
First thing that comes to mind....
Autumn: fun, leaves
Pink: my retainer haha
Your good luck charm: a neclace gina let me wear
Best song you ever heard: my immortal
Stupidest thing you have ever done: too many
What's your room like: big bed, purple, alot of frogs and dolphines, and a purple net thing over my bed...oh yea lots and lots of posters
Your most prized possession: my metals from chorus
What kind of shampoo do you use: finess, pantene pro v
Chicken pox: i had them
What schools have you gone to: public stupid schools
Hate anyone: yeah
Would you Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000: uhhh...not to sure bout that
Go to a Hanson concert if you had a free ticket: sure, or i'd sell it
Kill someone you didn't know for 15 billion dollars: no thanks
If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with you: my cousin, and nikki, we'd all have so much fun
If you loved someone and u were keeping something from them and it would hurt them if they found out, would u tell them: of course..no matter wat
Is the last person you called : nikki
Makes you laugh the most? : nikki
Makes you smile: jadey
Who broke your heart: heather
Is your loudest friend:umm were all loud so iuno
Do you like filling these out: too long.. haha
Do you wear contacts or glasses: glasses but dont wear them
Do you get along with your family: no
Do you do drugs: no
Color your hair? all the time..had it ever color of the rainbow n more so far
Have piercing below the waist?: no
Stolen anything over 50$: no
Obsessive?: sorta...not really
How many buddies are on your list: lot
What do you like to do: sing lalala
What did you do yesterday: went to school and then work
Hated someone in your family: yes i hate them all
Got any awards: yep for singing
What are you most scared of: bein alone
What car do you wish to have: silver or red celica or eclipse
Where do you want to get married: beach
If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change: everything
Vegetarian: hate veggies
Good driver: sometiems
Good actor: iuno
Good dancer: i love dancing, but im not good
Good storyteller: no LOL
Have a lava lamp: no
How many remote controls are in your house: i think 8
Are you double jointed: yep kinda
Last time you showered: im about to but last night
Last time you took a bath: dont take baths..i shower
The last movie you saw at the theaters: wax house, and something else
Sun or Rain: rain
scary or happy movies: scary
chocolate or white milk: chocolate
Root beer or Dr.Pepper: dr.pepper
Mud or Jell-O wrestling: both
Cake or Pie: cake
Silver or Gold: gold
Diamond or pearl: diamond
Sunset or Sunrise: sunset
Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
Pants or shorts: either
Orange juice or apple juice: apple
Cats or dogs: cats
Girls to Fill out about a guy (for girls only)..........but i like girls lol
Boxers or briefs: boxers
Stubble or neatly shaved: shaved
Dark or blonde hair: dark
Hat or no hat: no hat
Sex before or after marriage: depends but i'd like to wait
What do you notice first about guys....
Their eyes: i alwys look at eyes first..my wekaness
their smile: they have to have cute smiles hehe
Finished Survey: 12:31 pm
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I died:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I started smoking:
» I lived next door to you:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
 Who are you?
 Are we friends?
 When and how did we meet?
 How have I affected you?
 What do you think of me?
 What's the fondest memory you have of me?
 How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
 Do you love me?
 Have I ever hurt you?
 Would you hug me?
 Would you kiss me?
 Would you make love to me?
 Are we close?
 Emotionally, what stands out?
 Do you wish I was cooler?
 On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
 Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
 Am I lovable?
 How long have you known me?
 Describe me in one word:
 What was your first impression?
 Do you still think that way about me now?
 What do you think my weakness is?
 Do you think I'll get married?
 What about me makes you happy?
 What about me makes you sad?
 What reminds you of me?
 What's something you would change about me?
 How well do you know me?
 Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
 Do you think I would kill someone?
 Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
Can you see the fire
that burns from my heart
this song is for you so perfect
I have made an attempt, to have you...
Take this blade to my wrist
Help me end what makes you ugly
Swimming in the pools of my mind
You come to me at night
Leave me black and save yourself
Light up this cigarette
Tonight I will sleep with a gun in my mouth
Good night my love
took this from nikki's profile hehehe
omg omg ogm ogm i am sooo fuckin excited u dont even understand... well i called tanya (the absolute love of my life) well i called her last week to see if she wanted to come to my concert and she called me back 2night and i guess she was planning on goin and was goin to surprise me but she couldnt remember wat time it was at so she had to call me and ask me..and i juss got off the phone wit her..we were talkin for like 20 minutes...and she kept sayin how much she missed me and stuff and yea and im soo excited that shes comin 2mara. i mean she has heard me sing but this is different u know? im gonna be so nervous know knowing that shes there...hopefully i dont see her while im singing or ill screw up hehe but i havent talked to her or seen her in like..uhh in i think a little over 2 months!! and i get to see her 2marra and spend the night with her sunday!! yay and she said that shes gonna come visit me at work and we have to make plans for the summer!!! hehe im soo excited!! ahhh...well i gotta go cuz im gonna go call nikki cuz she hasnt called me yet :(